Waiting, waiting, waiting

I had a moment this morning where I thought I almost prefer the weeks of shots and hormones to the weeks of sitting around waiting to find out if this last IUI worked, but then I remembered how terrible the shots were. Sitting around is terrible in its own way. At least when I'm doing shots I feel like I'm being proactive as my body becomes a science experiment with tangible data and measurable changes.

Week one of the two week wait feels ok to me. I just do my thing, live my life, and feel apprciative that I'm no longer a human pin cushion. But week two feels soooo long. I feel fat and bloated and my boobs inflate from the daily progesterone I'm on, so I'm constantly wondering if maybe something worked. Wonder, wonder, wait, wonder. 

I keep trying to remind myself that the baby that's meant to be my baby will be. He may not be from my body, he may not be from this country, he may be formed using my sister's eggs. But eventually this chapter of our lives will be over and a new one will begin. Nothing stays the same forever. 

A year into this process I remember Noah saying, "I'm not doing this for three years. That's insane." Even though I reminded him that people do this for five, ten, fifteen plus years, he was certain we would figure this out and move on, baby in tow. And yet here we are. Three years later. Your inner strength and determination will surprise you sometimes.  It surprised him. Now we await a pleasant surprise. Hopefully.

I wonder if other people have better strategies in dealing with the two week wait? I tried to suggest going to Italy for two weeks but that was vetoed, since all our funds are going to my uterus right now. I may never see the inside of an airplane again. Any brilliant ideas?

Comments

[Don't Count Your Eggs]

Impressive to be training for a 5K! Not sure if that's in my cards these days but I do a lot of yoga which also really helps me. Time flies whether or not you're having fun so I figure I might as well try to have a good time while I wait to see if this is my lucky cycle. Fingers crossed! And good luck with you process :)

["Hope"]

Hi, I saw your blog mentioned on the Hollywood Housewife site when she posted about infertility. I too am going through infertility and think your blog is great. I always dig myself into a great book during the second week of the TWW. Always helps me through it. Ofcourse, when you get down to the last couple of days, then I can't focus on reading :) A few weeks ago I began training for a 5K charity race and that has helped too to get through the ups and downs. I hope this time is your lucky cycle!

[Don't Count Your Eggs]

I'm reading The Other by David Guterson, which is good, but not LOL funny. Maybe I should switch things up a bit.

[Larry Grobel]

Do you think reading a hefty book might help get you through the last week? Especially one that makes you laugh? Your mother is currently reading Portnoy's complaint. And I hear her laughing. When she isn't praying.