Some days we just feel like this. More specifically, like Brown Dog. I don't have much to write about because we are in that anticipatory hold until we start shots July 18th. I've been keeping myself very busy with the yoga teacher training I'm doing, which is good. Otherwise I really would be Brown Dog.
As part of the training we've been learning about chakras and energy, the "subtle body" as it's called. Now, I am as cynical as they get about these kinds of things and am not at all interested in crystals or healing bowls (unless there is a pile of ice cream in it), but learning about energy in the body and where it can be blocked made sense to me. I'm no chakra expert, but after learning about the seven chakra system and what ailments or tendencies are associated with an imbalance in each chakra, I've diagnosed myself with a second chakra issue.
In a nutshell, the second chakra aka the sacral chakra, located in the lower belly/pelvic bowl area, is all about creativity, feminine energy (the womb), self-acceptance and fertility. When it's out of whack, so are the things associated with this area. This is supposedly where guilt about money and sex and feelings of jealousy may be stored. Ummmm.... yeah.
For anyone going through infertility issues, these kinds of feelings may arise. Jealousy that it is so easy for so many other people to make a baby. Guilt about how much money the process costs. Frustration about how clinical and technical the baby making process has become. Add onto that how invasive all the procedures are. How vulnerable and desperate and afraid a person can feel day after day at the doctors office. It makes sense that my second chakra has checked out! But I need it back and I need it balanced. So I'm going to have to send love and healing and letting go to that area of my body so that this time next month I'll be good to go for my transfer day.
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