I made it through the week. Staying busy is really the key to the 2ww. I don't feel anything, which concerns me, though I don't know what I would actually feel. Little specks of dust in my belly?
I've been reading up a little bit on assisted hatching, because it was something we ended up having to do. The day of our transfer the doctor told us the outer shell of the embryos were too thick so they had to do a procedure that basically cracks the shell a little bit so that the embryo has a better shot at busting open. Without doing it, the embryos had less of a chance. At that stage of the game there are no real questions or decisions to be made. All we could do was nod. $955? Okay. Poking a needle through the shell of the embryo? Yeah, ok. Whatever it takes to increase our odds. And in reading up on assisted hatching it seems like many clinics do it and that it does help increase success.
So I added that to the list of things to feel positive about and will spend the day in the sunshine with my yoga buddies, appreciating that we got this far and praying that we leap over the next hurdle next week.
Thanks KB. It's so hard. I hope the first round is your only round! In our first round everything felt really life or death and I was SOOO crazy and sad and overwhelmed. In this last round I made a point to stay busy with something I love (yoga) and to constantly remind myself of the love and support I have in my life. There may be dark days ahead, and there will be lots of people in your life who say stupid things or just can't relate to you. For me, getting total tunnel vision and staying focused on what would make me feel better was all I could do to make it through. Write me any time if you want to talk or vent. I can reply directly through email too. Stay positive and remember it won't be like this forever!
Posted by: Don't Count Your Eggs | August 26, 2013 at 09:46 AM
Hey there- I've been keeping up with your blog as a way to stay sane in my own fertility struggles (it's SO HARD to find people to relate to in this process, don't you think?), and can't tell you how much it helps. Just wanted you to know I am sending positive vibes your way and really relate to a lot of what you're feeling and going through. I, too, am surrounded by friends who used a night on the town and a glass of wine to magically become pregnant, so I can relate to a lot of the 'triggers' you talk about as far as normal, everyday situations that can suddenly make you want to cry. You are being SO STRONG through all of this, even though I know the inner turmoil and lack of control makes it seem otherwise. I really admire your attitude and strength, and it's inspired me to attempt to have the same mindset as my husband and I get ready to take our first IVF steps. Thank you for keeping this blog and sharing!
Posted by: KB | August 25, 2013 at 09:27 AM