Breaking patterns: My New Years Resolution

I'm not big on making resolutions because I'm not good at keeping them. One year I decided to give up sugar and made it to April. That's the most discipline I've ever had. This year, aside from vowing to live as present and appreciative as I can, I want to try my best to break some of the patterns I've formed over the past year. I want to break the patterns of my repetitive thoughts and the patterns of my comfort zone that leads to patterns of isolation. But most of all I want to break the pattern of losing at the game of reproduction. I should rephrase that. This is clearly not a game. Games are fun. I guess I want to break the pattern of our losing streak. I'm too superstitious to say this will be our year, but I think committing to some things changing for the good is fair and very possible. That means that while we hope for a miracle, we also strategize, create a plan, and live our lives as fully as possible. That means we commit to adventure and fun and balance and moving to accomplish some of our other life goals, all of which have gotten pushed aside this last year. So yes. I'm totally learning to play the ukulele and Noah's going to get really good at painting watercolors of cats. 2013 is over in less than five hours from where I'm sitting in Brooklyn, NY. Part of me can't believe it, and part of me is happy for the clean slate. I wrote about expectations the other day, and while I know I can't expect that our luck will miraculously change at the stroke of midnight, I can expect that this year will bring change of some sort. Wishing everyone out there lots of positive changes and the willpower to change the things you do have control over. Hoping 2014 brings lots of luck and love and babies!