Looking for a little April Fools' day laughter

I remember one April Fools' day in high school when I told my then boyfriend that I was pregnant. He was HORRIFIED! He was my high school sweetheart and it was the cruelest thing I could have done. I played it out for a short while before bursting out, "April Fools'!" He did NOT think it was funny, but he was relieved. Back then I thought you could actually get pregnant by having sex. How dumb was I?

That was well over fifteen years ago.

This morning I was feeling a little nostalgic for a simpler time. A time when I truly did believe sex = baby. It made me realize how much of an education in how babies are made I have gotten over the past few years, and how ridiculous and ineffective sex ed in high school is. It's a shame women aren't taught to understand their bodies and their cycles better. Had I known... let's not go there.

This morning I texted Noah that I got my period. (Yes, he loves and appreciates the updates in the middle of a work meeting). I wish I could have followed that text with one that said, "April Fools!" but I couldn't. It was the truth. At the beginning of my next cycle (unless some MIRACLE happens) I'm set to start medication to prepare for the donated embryo. It's a lot to wrap my head around, but I'm thankful we have a plan. It's one that feels like the best fit for us at this stage. But it all feels so...heavy. There's a lot of preparation, a lot of hope, a lot of anxiety--a lot riding on this. That's how many of us feel when we are gearing up to start a cycle, all over again.  Heavy. 

So it's up to us to find a little light, a little laughter. This April Fool's Day I'm going to count on my Hubs and Louie C.K. to make me smile.What do the rest of you do to lighten the mood? Sending love and laughter to everyone out there on IF Island.

Comments

[Don't Count Your Eggs]

Lucy, I'm always hangin' in there ;) You just STAY POSITIVE!!! :)

[Lucy]

Thankyou. And sorry for the use of 'hang in there' - read one of your posts about that after sending. Oops. That one's never bothered me weirdly. 'Stay positive!' is the red rag to this particular bull. From one IF to another, hope I'm forgiven ;)

[Don't Count Your Eggs]

Hi Lucy,
Welcome! Good luck with the two week wait, though you only have 10 days! Ugh. Thanks for writing. M

[Lucy]

Hey Maya,
I came across your blog this evening (UK time) and have just lost several hours to it. Our situations are quite similar.. threw out the birth control on my 30th, now approaching 34 and on our second cycle of IVF right now (first failed, as did 5 IUIs). In fact I am 2 days post embryo transfer so the husband and I are suspended in that awful state of muted hopefulness.
Anyway, I never post things online (don't even do social networking) but your blog really struck a chord so I just wanted to say: hang in there, keep loving each other for everything that you already were and that this bullshit has made you, and however they come to be, yours will be one lucky kid to have parents like you.