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June 24, 2014


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Don't Count Your Eggs

Thanks so much to everyone for your thoughtful and supportive comments. It sounds like everyone totally understands these feelings. Reading all of your experiences makes me feel like I'm really among an elite group of people here--true warriors! Love to everyone.

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Soldier on, my friend. There's a whole group of us all marching right alongside you. I know some days are just rough- when the fear and the doubt and the anger and the guilt and the self-pity get to you, despite your best efforts. But it will not be like this forever. Someday, somehow, we will get where we are trying to go.


Oh lovely Maya. This is a post I could have written. Just wanted to let you know you're not alone. Thinking of you. x

A Few Good Eggs

Oh, Maya. I don't know you in "real" life, but my heart just aches for you. I have been there and know that feeling and it is just the worst of the worst. And while deep down we all know that things will work out somehow, that not knowing how and WHEN is impossible and torturous. I'm sending a hug.


It is scary how I read what you have written and how I have said those exact same things to my husband only days before!! I definitely feel your pain as we are beginning another cycle. I came home from the West Coast to find a message that I needed to start meds I didn't have. Long story short, someone at the pharmacy offered to stay until we got there.

This has to be the worst island I've ever been on and I've been here too long. We just keep going and hope that we make our dreams come true in the way that's best for us. Hang tough girls!!


I also wonder how this is my life. Remember that time I was supposed to have 4 kids? I understand the pain, and your words are very familiar to me. This sucks and that's ok.

Jill B

I read you blog over my lunch hour, but waited to come home after work to post a comment. I hate hearing pregnancy announcements. I hate shots in the butt! I hate being stuck in the childless limbo. You are taking steps to try and find your way out of this - I hope you find your happy "beginning" soon.


What you're really made of? Pure awesomeness. Even when you don't see it, we do. Stay strong my friend!!


So many of my own feelings you have posted here. Guilt that my husband isn't a father, because of me, isolating ourselves from friends etc... You are not alone, hang in there.


I have been following your blog for months. There are a lot of us out there that have been struggling to get pregnant for years. Trying everything from acupuncture, Mexican healers, traditional Chinese medicine with herbs, carrying healing crystals, switching to organic foods and cutting out decaf coffee and switching to green juice. Trying ANYTHING that worked for others on the internet, and praying that it is what will work for me. My hubby thinks I'm nuts, but he always says whatever for you in your head. We have done 4 iuis and I am diagnosed with DOR. We have been contemplating doing IVF with my eggs but of course the money thing is so scary. It is such a rollercoaster of emotions and I thank you for sharing your journey with us. It makes us feel like we aren't so alone out here on the "island". Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers Maya. Don't lose hope!!!


Once you choose hope, anything's possible. ~Christopher Reeve


Hugs ! I love reading your blog, so raw and real and describes how exactly how it is on this Island, it sucks plain and simple but I love your humor and honestly about all of this. I sadly joined this club last year when I got remarried and trying for a child, having DOR stinks. First IVF ended in a miscarriage at 10 wks due to a bad embryo and my 2nd cycle was canceled after 7 days of stims. Hoping to go in again and try.

I know you probably looked at a million clinics but have you looked into Dr. Sher ? He is on Vegas ( I am going to his NYC office) but he is amazing. I found his blogs and forums and have heard countless stories of him getting women pregnant in their late 30's and 40's with their own eggs. They even have a free ivf cycle to give once a year (I believe it starts like very soon) and he takes on the toughest cases, he even answers questions for free on his website and forum( post on the Vegas one)..

I hope today is a better day :)


Oh how I feel your pain! I also have DOR (AMH in 'undetectable' range) and have never been pregnant - it will be 2 years for us this summer. I have 2 first birthdays this week and in the past fortnight alone have had 4 birth announcements and 4 pregnancy announcements, 2 of which came yesterday, the day my period started early after a month of injections, tracking scans and trigger shot sweats. As my sister-in-law said, it is literally like a bad sitcom! Like you, I woke up this morning and for the umpteenth time wondered how on earth I got to this place and for the first time really considered whether it was worth it...so it was amazing to click on here and see my thoughts mirrored in your post. Your hope helps me hope too, so thank you once again for sharing your story so honestly. My family also follow this blog now and we are all rooting for you! Keep fighting, I really believe it will happen in the end and oh, how sweet it will be when it does. x


Hang in there Maya. Soon enough it'll all be over in some way or another. Several times these past few weeks I've said to myself "this can't be my life. What the hell happened?!". It'll be 5 years for me in August, literally the entirety of my marriage (the first time I got pregnant was on our honeymoon and I've had 3 miscarriages since. I haven't been able to get pregnant again since 2011). Somehow my RE talked me into doing a third round of IVF right as I turned 43. I've been on hormones for over four and a half months, and I'm so ready to have my body, my life and my friends back.

I'm saying extra prayers for you and Noah. Thanks for venting and making me feel I'm not as crazy as I think I am sometimes. Much love to you both!

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