"Let's try and salvage this cycle."

June 05, 2014

"Let's try and salvage this cycle."

Said my RE this morning. I wanted to throw my arms around him. He's been so good to us, and I realized how important it is to find an RE that's a good fit. But that's a topic for another day. Yes! Let's SALVAGE!

After my very disappointing ultrasound and the Seattle clinic cancelling my cycle, I had a thought. Could I possibly get pregnant this month? Could the gal who's been trying to get pregnant for FOUR YEARS, been through several IUI's and IVF and IVF with donor eggs--who was preparing for an embryo adoption, get pregnant naturally after being on birth control and Lupron? Poetic justice!

At the appointment with my RE on Monday, I asked him if I could get pregnant with the three follicles that looked like they were about to burst out of my ovary, and he shrugged, "maybe." I think he knows better than to use the words never, always, or impossible with me. I seem to prove him and modern science wrong more often than not. But my lining was thin at 4mm, so he suggested I just try naturally and hope for the best.

That night, I started to think about how to get my lining up, and at the suggestion of Gilli, my trusted acupuncturist, I emailed my RE and asked if I could start taking estrogen. He wrote back some directions and I started scavenging for left over meds. I found a bottle of Estrace (estrogen), six expired progesterone pills, five Endometrin progesterone suppositories, and 17 Crinone progesterone inserts, and wha la! A little makeshift natural-ish cycle! I started taking estrogen on Tuesday and went in to see my RE this morning. Low and behold my lining was up to 7mm and the three follicles were still sitting there. The nurse gave me a shot of HCG to trigger ovulation and the RE instructed me to "make love" at a specific time the next day.

"I think I still know how to do that," I said. The concept of having sex to make a baby is completely foreign to me now. I can't even fathom it, but the whole thing feels just crazy enough for me to feel hopeful. A chance is a chance, however slim. I will continue to plan for the next step and remain completely open and curious about who our baby may be and where it may come from.

So Noah and I have some doctor's orders to follow this weekend. We won't hold our breaths, but will ride this wave and see where we land.

Posted at 09:08 PM in HCG , Ovulation, Relationships, Trying, TTC | Permalink

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Thanks for sharing that hopeful story Jackie! I hear them often. I know a couple who had twins after three rounds of IVF and multiple IUI's. She had an ectopic so she only had one tube, and she had really love egg count, and her husband's sperm literally swam in circles. They were told after the twins that they would never get pregnant. NEVER. Well...they did. Just a few months after the twins were born! Crazy things do happen and you really never know.

Posted by: Don't Count Your Eggs | June 11, 2014 at 07:38 AM

Maya, hopping for the BEST for you! I wanted to share a hopeful story quickly - I have a friend who has been trying to conceive for at least 3 years. She did 3 IVFs and at least as many IUIs, all failed. Then she had a genetic test that revealed a very rare chromosomal disorder (no documented case even on record). Her AMH is also the lowest possible reading. The geneticist said her chances of ever having her own children were extremely slim. She had one last frozen embryo that she and her husband decided to transfer only because they didn't want to get rid of it. Meanwhile, they had a donor already contracted and in cycle. Well, the FET took and she's now 10 weeks. She is very cautious still like your one friend. But she says it's a miracle and I believe her. I think that your miracle will come too. xoxox

Posted by: Jackie | June 11, 2014 at 07:08 AM

You never EVER know. GOOD LUCK!

Posted by: A Few Good Eggs | June 10, 2014 at 11:41 AM

Thanks for all the love everyone! We shall see. I can take a blood test on the 18th. Feels so far away. At my last appointment my doc looked at me and said, "There's never a dull moment with you." Do people go through IVF and just have it work and that's it? I can't imagine. Maybe I'm a natural born drama queen. Anyway, all of your support means so much and I wish everyone out there the absolute best.

Posted by: Don't Count Your Eggs | June 09, 2014 at 12:06 PM

Yes! That's so exciting and so rare in the realm of IF bs - to be feeling like you're at a low point and then get rocketed back to hope and possibility. I hope this works out for you... I was going to say times three, but maybe that's a little scary? Times one or two!

Posted by: C | June 09, 2014 at 10:05 AM

And another twist on the roller coaster! None of us intended for our journeys toward parenthood to read like telenovelas, but I have to say, yours is really heating up right now! Will be keeping my fingers crossed for you...

Posted by: WBC | June 07, 2014 at 12:18 PM