I normally don't veer from fertility related topics, but given what happened yesterday I feel like I have to take a moment. Yesterday around 11am, our condo was broken in to. Someone broke through the window and in a hurry grabbed a few things, went through a few drawers and bolted. A few neighbors saw the guy making his way out of our supposedly secure complex on Noah's bike, and one of our neighbors confronted him and ended up getting the bike back. The guy basically took off with our iPad and a few other things, but nothing real valuable.
Except for my sense of safety.
Noah and I have lived in this place for several years and I've always felt very safe. We sleep with our windows open and during the day I leave the back door open to let some air in. Not anymore. I'm sitting at home now, waiting for the fingerprint guy to come and take prints.
It's a really violating feeling to have something like this happen, and it made me realize how lucky I am on a daily basis to have a sense of safety, a home, a husband, neighbors who look out for us, food--all the basics. There are a lot of people around the world who don't have that. A basic sense of security is something I've taken for granted.
As I dialed 911, I was frantic. I didn't know what had happened and what was missing and all I could think about was if my panic was negatively impacting Momo. I don't even know if Momo is in there, or what he may be doing in there, but yesterday I felt like he was. It was kind of the first time. I felt like my job was to calm my body down as best I could and get the police to come.
The police came and the rest of the day was uneventful. We were able to track the iPad but the police refused to go after it, trying to get the guy, because they said that Google maps isn't that reliable. Umm..excuse me, Google is where I get about 94% of my information, Sir.
Anyway, what yesterday reminded of is to be grateful, always, for the basic needs that I have met in my life. At times when I've been at a really low point, I'm sometimes able to tap into remembering the things I appreciate. For all of us that do have love and warmth and food and shelter and safety, it's not small thing. Sometimes feeling that gratitude can help in moments of pain or frustration or sadness.
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