My butt is done. It told me after progesterone in oil butt breakfast this morning, that it's done. Even though my rear end is exponentially larger than when we started this glorious "journey," Noah is running out of real estate. My butt is red and lumpy and swollen and itchy and I'm amazed that I can sit on it for the majority of the day. I was tempted to post a picture of my butt, but thought better of it. Instead I'll post a picture of our dining room table's center piece:
I don't know why my pictures get so flipped around here. I can't wait for the day I can take this box of goodies to the appropriate disposal site (???) and say goodbye to it forever. Ten more days. Ten more shots. I'm supposed to "graduate" from my RE on Sept 8th, if all looks ok, and then maybe I'll be able to add on a few letters to the P word.
I remember our first injection lesson back in 2012. I was terrified of the menopur needle, and Noah was so nervous his hand was visibly shaky. The night before he was to give me my first shot at home, by ourselves Noah threw up. The physical aspect of IF Island was extremely upsetting to both of us. After multiple medicated IUI's and IVF--shooting menopur and follistim and ganirelix and lupron and omnitrop and estrogen and progesterone...what am I missing-- I can say we are pros now. It almost seems cute to watch how nervous we both were--my sweaty armpits, his death grip on my belly chubs.
Years have gone by. I have to stop myself from thinking about how much medication my body has endured, because it kind of freaks me out. All I can think is that all those unsuccessful attempts, those thousands of dollars of injections, those skin pricks and bruises, have, perhaps, led me to where I am. With my swollen butt and my Momo, who is hopefully still nuzzled away in there. (I'll know on Thursday when I go to my OBGYN).
Would I do all of it all over again if this ends up in a real live Momo with fingers and toes? Absolutely. Does it suck? Absolutely. Is it unfair and terrible and crappy? Absolutely. Can we survive it? Absolutely.
Sending love to anyone who has an overflowing red bio-hazard box somewhere in their home. You can do it!
Oh we know that feeling. We hid the boxes when the landlord visited since we didn't want to appear sick by simply wanting to conceive children. Well I know how many of you feel on here as we struggled to conceive. We ordered clomid at an online solution without a prescription and it worked for us. Saved some money. All packages arrived on-time and the quality of the pills was perfect. Hope this helps. http://bit.ly/1qtOR7C
Posted by: Diedre Hansen | August 31, 2014 at 07:01 PM
My biohazard box is sitting in my car. I took it with me and meant to give it back to our RE at our WTF appointment last month, but I forgot. I really don't want to go into the RE's office right now, so it'll probably just sit there until we start IVF again in January. SO EXCITED for when you get to graduate from the RE!
Posted by: Lisa | August 29, 2014 at 08:54 PM
ME TOO! By my count 65 giant progesterone needles down, 5 more to go, and SO looking forward to it. But everyday I am grateful that I got the opportunity to do these for so many weeks past beta...
Posted by: WBC | August 28, 2014 at 05:09 PM
Ha! I totally gave the red bio-hazard box sitting under the sink in our bathroom!! Not sure why I haven't gotten rid of it yet...?! I was reading in the post before this one about how you feel more a part of the IF Community, and I couldn't agree more; and even at 20 weeks "P" I'm ok with it I think. What a special, resilient, amazing group of people...
Posted by: Jayne | August 27, 2014 at 08:32 PM
I was joking with a twitter buddy that we should collect all our biohazard boxes and empty med containers and create an art exhibit. It would be quite the show! But if this is what it takes, bottoms up indeed!
Posted by: Don't Count Your Eggs | August 27, 2014 at 10:31 AM
Ah, the needles. I too remember how freaked out we were for the first rounds of shots circa 2011. Hopefully you can get rid of all this soon. Good luck tomorrow.
Posted by: gradualchanges | August 27, 2014 at 09:05 AM
Ironically, I have an overflowing red bio-hazard box! Heparin injections 2x per day since 5w3d, until like 38 weeks. It's more tedious than painful but I do have some bruises and bumps. But for a real, live, baby--I said I'd do anything. So bottoms up! XOXO
Posted by: My Life As A Case Study | August 26, 2014 at 11:26 PM
I was rely excited to give all of that stuff back to the clinic! 10 more days! I'm so happy for you!
Posted by: Jamie | August 26, 2014 at 10:51 PM
A health dept should also take it
Posted by: jacob | August 26, 2014 at 08:53 PM
OMG, my closet looks just like this! Three full biohazards and bags of other "goodies" (i.e. alcohol pads, gauze and q-caps). Very much looking forward to the day when we can chuck it all! :)
Posted by: JCS | August 26, 2014 at 05:13 PM
We returned ours to our IVF clinic and they take care of it. You give me so much hope with my 4 failed IVF cycles.
Posted by: Anita | August 26, 2014 at 03:45 PM
Thanks for the encouragement! Hope your butt feels better!
Posted by: Jill B @ hopinghopefloats.blogspot.com | August 26, 2014 at 02:42 PM
Your post just reminded me to take my progesterone. Thanks!
Posted by: Blake | August 26, 2014 at 12:56 PM
You can return the bio-hazard box and contents to any drugstore. They're not super happy to get it but they have the bio-hazard equipment to handle. Won't it be nice to return those!!!
Posted by: Christiana | August 26, 2014 at 11:13 AM