Hubs Post: I Have Feelings. Finally.

I’m not an emotional guy. At all. Lately I’ve been joking with Maya that I’m getting soft (that doesn’t sound right). My heart kinda smiles when I’m around little girls (that really doesn’t sound right). It’s like I, gulp, care about people. And I’m - yeesh - growing feelings. Yuck. With a daughter, hopefully, on the way in T-minus 20 weeks, I’m afraid I’m quickly developing a sort of nurturing, warm feeling around people, that I’ve never had before in my life.

 

Have you seen INTERSTELLAR yet? Maya and I saw it today. I broke her out of house arrest bed rest and took her an entire block to the closest movie theater. There is a scene between Matthew McConaughey’s character and his daughter (no spoilers!). There is a discussion about a father making a promise to his daughter. I don’t know what happened. My sinuses got tight, my nose began to itch, and I started crying. Not just some “the Giants win the World Series!” watery eyes. Tears. Big ones. All down my face. I looked at Maya in a panic. What is happening to me? Am I getting soft? The movie wasn’t that good that it should make me cry like this. And yet there I was, Sunday afternoon, balling some emotional McConaughey tears.

 

I can’t remember the last time I cried. Chances are it was either a moment when a favorite sports team of mine won a championship (go Giants!!!) or I was listening to some emotionally charged singer-songwriter ballad after a few too many drinks (Jeff Buckley’s version of “Satisfied Mind” gets me every time). Even then, I’m sure it was more my eyes getting red and burning and then I managed to squeeze out a couple rain drops. Then today happened.

 

Maybe this is what I need to prepare for a daughter. Maybe this is what I’ve needed all along. Maybe I’m a real human after all. I have feelings! Bring on the little girls! (That didn’t sound right again but you get it!) 

 

Below is an example of my relationship with feelings.

 

 

Comments

[Kiki]

Nice, Noah. Way to work. In a way, this is a championship year you and your management team earned with long hard work.

[Tami]

NOAH! omg NOAH!!
You've got it!

[Larry]

Just wait,Noah--there will be plenty more tears to come...and they won't always be so moving.....but that's the way it is, with girls. You are in for a roller coaster of emotions. And ain't it grand!